I really want to delete everything I have on the internet. I have been thinking about it for quite a while. All the videos, all the blogging... Especially this blog since it is like wearing another man's knickers.
Much of it has to do with wanting to cut off the past. Mine certainly...and that miserable history we are attempting to share to the so called sleeping herd.
There are so many reasons and excuses that contribute to being unhappy about this world and my own life and blaming myself is exactly what the elite loves to get away with. Blaming the people for floundering around in a polluted sea that they created-- not us... I actually believe the answer IS --TO BLAME THEM-- and not ourselves...
And yet, it makes me unhappy to continue on this path... I have a massive amount of work that essentially is about a starving/striving artist who makes lemonade out of lemons and yet is often responsible for more lemons than a person should have in stock... For example... No one can argue, certainly not me that gambling has not helped me at all... Although I use it as a plot point in this reality TV program, and it is an issue that deserves the light... it is just one of many problems that needs a clear logical real face off... and taking the bullshit by the horns.
In some ways I made a name this passed decade on the internet but vibrationally I know I am walking a thin line as to whether this effort flowers or dies on the vine. We all know how a TV series gets old and sticks around too long. Well, I need to do what a restaurant in trouble needs to do. Close and regroup, and plan on a re-opening under new management.
I like the 10 people give or take who are contributing and could see a slick blog using the talent to contribute regularly. For example, I post On Monday and Graham on Tuesday and Hugh on Wednesday and Wanda on Thursday. And on through the week. That would give each of us time to spend a week really getting together a professional article with visuals.
And of course a new blog Address...
I want to finish the work I started but it all needs re-editing. The videos, the books, the music, the blogs... Right now I have some good work that could be great work but the volume is suffocating the possibilities.
It's recognizing the writing on the wall.